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'Neath the Tree [Redux] by JasaniSinestre, literature

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'Neath the Tree [Redux]

"Dear Sir," saith she, "why dost thou cry Hiding thine face 'neath the Tree of Death? For the beast, good Sir, be long gone An nary a singular trace be left." "I long to die mine final tyme Hiding mine face 'neath the Tree of Death For that beast, long gone, hath tortured me An from me mine love he hath bereft." He proceeded to tell his terrible tale Hiding his face 'neath the Tree of Death The beast, it seemeth, hath smote his love An with him proceeded to water's depth. An here doth our tale reach its grisly end Deep within the water's depth The beast, you see, did dine upon his love An of him nary a piece be left. "And this," he spake,

The Amnesia Center by JasaniSinestre, literature

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The Amnesia Center

Those who refuse to learn from the past are doomed to repeat it. Good motto, but it's not ours. Here, at the Amnesia Center, our motto is “If the past is too painful, leave it in the past.” Thanks to medical breakthroughs, we've developed a treatment method which allows any specific memory to be erased – it's like it never happened. (Side effects are rare and may include unintended loss of other memories from that time period.) In theory, it's a system which works well. In other cases... Take, for example, my next patient. He's been in every three or four months, always for the same request. “I found someo

Untitled Freeflow 7 by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Untitled Freeflow 7

Lost within hoping for love hoping for more desiring feeling reaching unable to touch to comfort to love and oh you deserve to be loved by not be one so profane as me but no one else loves you you proclaim and I offer to be that one who can be there for you but I am imperfect too imperfect to soil you with my bloodstained hands my hands which have the sweat of years and the stains of tears upon them you are perfect precious like a flower in the first rays of the morning's sun and I should not can not will not be with you but I can love you worship you from afar even if you know I am here your place cannot be here you do not belong to me and n

Kangoku no Ikari by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Kangoku no Ikari

Tension Anger Regret Hatred Why do you see me Some strange worthless being Beast of burden Soulless slave Tied to existence by your yoke The clock is my chain Held against my will Longing for freedom Desperately afraid of freedom I rage against my cage I cannot break free I see the truth Hovering just beyond my reach Calling, taunting Tantalizingly teasing Torturing my soul as I lay here No will of my own No mind of my own Destined to bow and scrape Dancing attendence on the unworthy A leash of cold iron I cannot break it I cannot fight it To all eyes I serve willingly A fake smile plastered on Never allowed to sh

Koorimakura by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Koorimakura

Frozen Trapped within Solace and solitude A sanctuary of ice A prison of frost Dying by inches The sharp chilly blades I reach out to break through Sliced open Laid bare I turn to rime My breath as Zephirus's My body changes My hands grow cold Clear as ice I cannot bleed I am too cold The ice spreads My hair becomes icicles My eyes frost diamonds There is no other feeling Only the cold The frigid death of the tundras I awake with a scream Cold sweat covers me I rub my hands beneath the blanket Trying to bring warmth back Afraid to look Afraid to see them tinged blue The ice is real And I remain Trapped within...

Yaburetayume by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Yaburetayume

Before I drew breath How many mirrors shattered in my name? Thousands of refracted nightmares Millions of splinters of silvered glass Take root in my heart, my soul Defining my life, decrying my hopes Punished ere I was born Seven years never felt so long The pain, misery, loneliness Brief reprieves in the torturous walk The light shines briefly Reflecting off the shard A kaleidoscope of color and wonder Before it all disappears And I return to the faceless darkness Hidden from myself Hidden from my fate Hidden from the ill luck Which defines who I am Who I was Who I will become Never to feel love eternal Never to fee

Akari no Kurushimi by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Akari no Kurushimi

Yami no hogoku Darkness which gives sanctuary Protecting Guarding Hiding mine face Hiding me from my fears The face I show the world Is a front, a facade A mask in the masquerade of life And may the midnight hour never come A gloom of solace A guarded shadow The darkness of my own heart Hidden within Fearing the Light For the Light reveals all For the Light brings pain Akari no kurushimi Suffering Loathing Hate for hate's sake I shun this truth This light I hide my face from it I seek to avoid its cruel gaze I tell myself that I shall remain Unseen Unknown Faceless, nameless Is it but a cruel thesis?

Untitled Freeflow 6 by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Untitled Freeflow 6

Anger betrayal the loss the pain the suffering was any of it ever real or was it forever to be just a distant thought a hope a fond wish beyond the veil of consciousness within the darkest reaches of my heart my soul longing for you never to find you never to see you only to forever be lost and lonely hidden from myself hidden from my truth lying to myself when I would never lie to any but myself because I loved you without you ever knowing ever believing always thinking me a friend just a friend nothing more nothing less lost to the lies of friendship stuck forever outside seeing you inside happy and loving and I am happy for you but is my h

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'Neath the Tree [Redux] by JasaniSinestre, literature

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'Neath the Tree [Redux]

The Amnesia Center by JasaniSinestre, literature

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The Amnesia Center

Untitled Freeflow 7 by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Untitled Freeflow 7

Kangoku no Ikari by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Kangoku no Ikari

Koorimakura by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Koorimakura

Yaburetayume by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Yaburetayume

Akari no Kurushimi by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Akari no Kurushimi

Untitled Freeflow 6 by JasaniSinestre, literature

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Untitled Freeflow 6

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About JasaniSinestre

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Artist // Professional // Literature

Dec 19
United States
Deviant for 19 years
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Current Residence: 13h Level of Hel (aka Tucson, AZ)
deviantWEAR sizing preference: XL
Favourite genre of music: Pop (but I like every almost kind -- except country)
Favourite photographer: n/a
Favourite style of art: shounen-ai/yaoi for visual, sword+sorcery for written
Operating System: Win7
MP3 player of choice: If it works, I'm good. (Current App/Program:: Spotify // Current Device:: my Galaxy S3)
Shell of choice: Uhm.. chocolate?
Wallpaper of choice: Any cute shounen-ai/yaoi or similar qualities (currently using OHSHC, FMA, YGO, and a couple others)
Skin of choice: As above (currently using a random bishie skin)
Favourite cartoon character: Beastboy!!! (Anime, however... most any shibby bishie will do, with my faves being numerous)
Personal Quote: Darkness Within, Mirrored Without

Favourite Visual Artist

Any good shounen-ai artist, but my all-time faves are Sandra K and NJ Huff

Favourite Movies

Varies often

Favourite Bands / Musical Artists

David Archuleta, Linkin Park, Evanescence, and many many more

Favourite Writers

Mercedes Lackey (especially the Last Herald-Mage series... yay!)

Favourite Games

Any good RPG or MMO (currently: City of Heroes), also the Rock Bands

Favourite Gaming Platform

360 or PC

Tools of the Trade

Notepad, sometimes OOo (what, you were expecting something fancy? Please.)

Other Interests

RPGs, MMOs, writing, stalking shounen-ai artists

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JasaniSinestre

Jun 24, 2022

Am I actually back this time? Or is this more of the before "am I or am I not"? I suppose only time will tell. (Also, a bit of rebranding, no biggie.)

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JasaniSinestre

Oct 25, 2018

I... may or not be back. The answer may surprise you.

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JasaniSinestre

Oct 20, 2010

In Memory...

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Remember, kids... As you leave your homes today... as you head out to work, to school, to play... Wear purple. Wear it in honor of GLBT youth that won't be heading out today... because other kids were taught that being gay was wrong, was sinful, was something to be made fun of. Wear purple in honor of those bullied into an early grave out of ignorance.