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Akari no Kurushimi

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Yami no hogoku
Darkness which gives sanctuary

Protecting
Guarding

Hiding mine face
Hiding me from my fears
The face I show the world
Is a front, a facade
A mask in the masquerade of life
And may the midnight hour never come

A gloom of solace
A guarded shadow
The darkness of my own heart

Hidden within
Fearing the Light
For the Light reveals all
For the Light brings pain

Akari no kurushimi
Suffering
Loathing
Hate for hate's sake

I shun this truth
This light
I hide my face from it
I seek to avoid its cruel gaze
I tell myself that I shall remain

Unseen
Unknown
Faceless, nameless

Is it but a cruel thesis?
Am I confusing anonymous desires
With the need to protect myself?
If I cannot feel
Then I cannot be hurt
If I cannot be found
Then I cannot be attacked
If I do not exist
Then no suffering can exist for me

Lying to myself
Even when I can't lie to others
Hiding my face from myself
I have become my own enemy
I have become what I fear most
Now I am the one bringing

Suffering
Loathing
Unyielding pain

Will I ever be free of the pain?
Can I ever be free of myself?
The door is there
It is open, it is unlocked
Can I steel my nerves
Can I walk through
And face the Light
Or am I destined
To walk only within the darkness
Forever?
This was written for an assignment in my writing class. (I know, at my age, just now getting back to school?)

I generally like the way it came out. >.>;
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